mai life

what will you feel when the people you care about
the people you love the most
the people you value above anything else
the people you’d die for
the people you’ll trade your soul with the devil
the people which you’ll endure bruises and scratches
the people which you’ve endure the bruises and scratches
the people which you’ve had the bruises and scratches
the people you thought you could trust your life to
the people you thought you could trust with your life
simply stab you from behind?

I’m just
sad.
I’m taken aback and again, thinking,
what have i done wrong?
am i really that unloveable?
am i really that price-less?
am i really that unworthy?
do i have that writing in my forehead saying:
please stab me, oh please, i’m begging you?

but then again,
you can never lose what you you never, ever, had

and when i give myself time to cry out and have a peace with my mind, the tears just simply refuse to cooperate. But then, when i’m with other people, when i’m out in the open, i could hardly held them at bay.
and i dont like barring my life to stranger like that….

oh yeah?!?!
so what do you call posting it on your blog?

sigh……
contradiction in a simple sentence.

on a lighter, happier, much happier note, hari ini mei nikah!!! yay!!! You finally get someone to make a decent woman out of you whuehehehehhe…….

Hope you two get along just fine until you’re both old and crippled, amen!!!

Cuma satu pesen gue, tolong jangan punya anak dulu, okeh.
it’s hard enough for me that you married this year, gak perlu deh langsung branak taon depan, OKEH!! *ngancem* huehehhe…..

Yang laen, jadi kita mo janjian ketemu dimana nih buat pergi bareng2 ke resepsinya mei????