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happy birthday, love

Libur akhir taon masih sebulan lagi, tapi gue jadi kepikiran nih mo ngapain. Bcos it’s confirmed that I wont be having what I really want for my birthday present *sobs* dan keluarga gak bakal kemana2 taon ini.

Hey!! Klo birthday nyatu ma liburakhirtaon, boleh dong gue satuin ajah rencananya hueheheh…

Hhmm… birthday, huh? Diinget2, gue ultah/new year gak pernah gak sama keluarga. Uh, okeh, okeh, pernah sekali2nya gara2 ikutan worlds (taon 2003). Itu juga gak bikin pengen lagi (ultah gak bareng keluarga) soalnya cowok2 sinting itu ngancem bakal announce di MLT bahwa, “Today is her birthday, therefore, tonight’s beer are ON her!!!” whuah!! Dengan bule2 pemabuk  bottomless pit ituh!? Yang ada gue jadi tkw di sonoh!!

Untungnya sih kaga (becandanya bau darah banget deh!), cuman tetep ajah, mo mandi ajah susah, soalnya bergiliran obert en tene tpon soal, “jadi nanti mo nraktir dimana?”

Tapi all in all, lumayan berkesan lah. Round pertama hari itu kita menang!! Yay!! Waktu ditanya ama anak Harvard (ah.. allen whuehehe), erich bilangnya, “maybe becos it’s her birthday” only to found out bahwa alex Harvard juga bday hari itu(uhm… klo gak salah ;p). Ah, tapi emang udah seharusnya whuahaha… soalnya case kita lebih bagus *pede* walopun the next two rounds kalah whuahahahaha…. And at the end of the day, kita end up nyasar ajah gituh di singapur whuahahha.. gara2 salah belok pas keluar stasiun mrt. Untungnya berlima ma obert, mk, tene, en waduh.. sapa tuh anak ITB ato unpar ato unpad?! Keke yah? Dan untungnya lagi, ada taksi yang mo ngangkut ke-5 anak ilang ini. Udah takut ajah cuma mo ngangkut 4. Niwei, pas lagi ‘safari malam’ ituh gue traktir mereka2 (exclude mk) bir di convenient store terdekat dari jalur nyasar kita ituh. Erich? Anak satu itu nekat ikut international night!!

Taon 2004 musti kerja ajah gituh!!! Sedangkan mom and dad are in the country dan semua orang kecuali gue ke puncak!!! Aarrgghh… udah terbayang betapa gloomynya duduk di kos sorangan, playing with my thumbs, sulking until the very next year *hmpf*

But since my family are ultra sweet (when they want to) pa mista disuruh balik lagi ke Jakarta sepesial buat jemput gue!! And voila, I was there. With the rest of my family whom I love so much to spend my birthday and the New Year. And to add it up, ada blackforest super gede waiting for me!!! Aaawww…. so sweet..

2005 sih kaga kerja, malah liburnya duluan dibanding orang2 laen whuahaha… kesenjangan sosial tapi kaga ada acara sama sekali!! Cuma nginep doang di shang-rila tgl 24-25nya. Itu juga karena ieching dapet voucher nginep gratis whauahaha… (liat postingan sebelomnya!)

Taon ini cuma ada acara bakar2an di rumah ieching doang pas taonbaru. Jadinya kerjaan gue adalah ngetik ungu violet mpe sebuku abis en nonton pelem Taiwan ampe pake acara kesengsem segala ma yang maen whuahahha… (lagi, liat postingan sebelomnya!)

Dan pas hariannya, pergi ke waterboom! Pertama sih skeptis. I mean, come on: birthday. Waterboom. Gak matching!!

But it turned out to be the fun-est birthday I’ve had! Kalo bukan karena ‘yang tua2’ mo pergi ke tempat laen mah mungkin gue dan segenap sepupu yang laen dengan rela ngojay di situ seharian huehehe… Btw, ketauan bahwa echbert bener2 jago kandang. Masa dia kaga berani sama sekali naek seluncurannya whuahaha…

Dan karena sepagian maen aer, jadi pas liat henpon wuih! penuh! En juga banyak miskol dari orang2 yang nyangka gue kaga ngangkat karena belom bangun. Hey!!! I wake up early on my birthday!!!

Yang paling bikin naek darah dan dengdem ampe sekarang tentunya yang taon 2002 punya. Dimana orang2terkasih gue, yang demi mereka gue rela berkorban jiwa dan raga, yang gak pernah gue sangka bakalan berbuat jahat ama gue, whom I care so much… nimpuk gue ajah gituh dari belakang pake telor!!!! *horror*

Siyal bener!!!

Well, keuntungan dari ultah pas libur adalah tentunya gue gak pernah kena stupid pranks that people used to pull to the birthday person. Klo masalah mereka pada gak ngucapin/lupa sih, well, I don’t really care. Kecuali klo orang2terkasih gue lupa, baru tuh gue ngambek *lirik novi* huehehe…

Nah, makanya gue kaget setengah mati pas tau2 ditimpuk kepala gue pake telor. Yang bikin konyol, mereka2 tuh pada gak modal!! Jadi maen ke rumah, trus buka kulkas, trus mereka confirm ada telor, trus ditimpuk lah tuh telor whuahahahha…. Nunun dengan jahatnya bilang, “puas gue, mai, bisa nimpuk loe” hiks.. padahal gue gak pernah timpuk2 belahanjiwa gue ituh…

Waks! Masih sebulan 9 hari dan gue dah ngomongin soal bday?! Hhmm… kira2 taon ini kirim ‘countdown notification’ lagi gak yah?! *evil grin* resikonya paling ian jadi bete lagi heuehehe… Decided, I will. Then again, what’s December without my “countdown notification’, huh? *shameless grin*

Ah, but still, I wont be able to have what I really want for my bday present I want him! I want to whip him when he misbehaves *mulai kinky* whuahahaha….

Yep, I aint a credit card virgin anymore, yay!!!! Whuehehehe….

So, effective last Saturday, I’ve started the infamous love-and-hate relationship with the plasticcard.

Dimulai, tentunya dengan beli tiket nonton huehehehe… Dan karena di TA cuma muter casino royale (3studio!!) en pulse (yang mana gak mungkin gituh gue tongton!!) jadilah ngantri di antrian yang super panjang buat beli tiket casino royale. Dan jreng..jreng..jreng.. penuh ajah gituh!! 3 layar dan sold out semua, kecuali mo nonton midnite. Jadi, langsung mesen ajah buat hari minggunya.

So, the first time I’m using it, adalah buat beli tiket nonton buy1get1 yang dan waktu nontonnya adalah besoknya. Whuah… langsung berasa keren banget huehhe… I never did both!!

Uh, okeh, okeh, .. emang first time ever-nya sih bukan di 21, tapi di Carrefour. Gara2 yang mandiri entah kenapa gak bisa dipake (mo kumplen ah, senen) nyebelin! Tapi pertama make mc2nya sih di 21, jadi yah.. kita anggep ajah klo first-timenya di 21 yah…. *lirik kirikanan mencari dukungan*

Eniwei, bener2 yah itu kartusetan, soalnya tadi gue ngitung2 udah pake berapa banyak, en oh.my.god! gue udah pake lebih dari yang direncanakan!!!! Sanggup bayar sih, sanggup, tapi jadi gak bisa beli hal2 penting laen, seperti misalnya … komik whuehhe..

Dan tentunya, langsung kebayang siklusmengerikan:

Bayar tagihan à kurang mencukupi untuk beli hal2 yang harus dibeli à pake kartusetan à bayar tagihan à kurang mencukupi untuk beli hal2 yang harus dibeli à pake kartusetan à …

Oh well, you get the picture kan??

Yah, seengga2nya, berkat si kartu, gue beli kamus inggris-indo juga. Yeah, akhirnya! whuahahaha… Setelah ampir 24 taon idup tanpa mengandalkan kamus (long story made short, kadar percaya gue rendah ke kamus2 inggris-indo) akhirnya tadi gue beli juga. Agak meringis juga sih, ama harganya yang 85rb!! Mana meri (ketemu di gramed) bilang klo dulu dia beli di glodok cuman 17rb!!! Sayangnya ke glodok jauh yak..) Dan pasti gue bakalan nangis bombay deh, klo ternyata di laysin dijual dengan harga yang jauh lebih murah *bertekat gak mo ambil resiko dengan nanya di laysin*

Oh well, karena ini kamus rekomendasi hendra, gue percaya aja deh. Lagi mo liat2 nih. Klo ternyata isinya mengecewakan, huh, habis sudah kepercayaan gue ma kamus!!

Dan semoga ajah ‘investasi’ gue inih balik lagi dengan membanyaknya permintaan2 menerjemahkan *ngarep* whuehehhe…

All in all, I have a great weekend. Yeah, the ‘him’ factor tentunya whuahahha…

And oh, komen gue soal casino royale:

Yeah, Daniel Craig emang gak se-smooth Pierce Brosnan. And I don’t think he’ll ever be! Tapi karena jalan ceritanya, ceunah mah, dia pertama kali jadi 00 agent, yah, bisa dimaklumi kali yah. Karena blom di polish to perfection the 007 that we know (know: pierce brosnan’s, sean connery’s 007 kind of personality: the charming English gentleman and stuff)

Dan si Daniel itu mukanya kejam yah! Like he enjoys killing. Wah… in his next movie, klo jadi penjahat keren tuh!!

Storyline-nya yah, bolelah. Gak bisa komen banyak2. Soalnya, sebener2nya nih, ini pertama kalinya gue nonton pelem 007 secara kumplit en di bioskop pula whuahahaha…

Tambahan gak penting:

Their accents are killing me!!! Meleleh gue tiap kali denger those brits talking. Oh yeah, sure, I’ll understand zip klo gak ada teksnya. Hearing gue emang parah klo mengenai aksen laen selaen amrikstandar (baca: sesame street) tapi elektroplasma gue selalu meleleh tiap kali denger aksen brits *blush*

Tambahan lebih gak penting:

Penonton (baca: gw) kecewa karena doski kaga sixpacks!!! whuahahha… review paling gak penting ah, tapi pemandangan punggung telanjangnya Orlando Bloom di dead man’s chest lebih napsuin bikin mendesah *tos ama wina* dibanding semi-nakednya Daniel Craig!!!

just changed my profile, fave music section. And i wanted to give the lyrics away hehehhe… yah, the reason why i like certain songs kan biasanya karena liriknya

tapi cuma sebait dua yah, klo semuanya kepanjangan huehehe

ini gue jadi teringang2 karena lagi di playlistnya hardrock kecuali yang save room sih karena gue dah dapet kopiannya en gue puter

1.    

james morrison - you give me something

Chorus:

'Cause you give me something

That makes me scared, alright,

This could be nothing

But I'm willing to give it a try,

Please give me something

'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours

Just to spend a little time alone with me,

And I can say I've never bought you flowers

I can't work out what the mean,

I never thought that I'd love someone,

That was someone else's dream.

Please give me something,

'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,

But it might me a second too late,

And the words I could never say

Gonna come out anyway.

2.    

john legend – save room

Chorus:

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won’t you save a little
Save a little for me oh

This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don’t be afraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is on the other side (bait ini agak provokatif yah!! whuehehehehe….)

Let down your guard just a little
I’ll keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need

If you stay, won’t you stay stay

Make time to live a little
Don’t let this moment slip by tonight
You never know what you are missing until you try
I’ll keep you satisfied
If you stay, won’t you stay stay

3.    

3 doors down – here by me

Chorus:

And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
‘Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong

As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you’re not here

4.    

bob ice - time in a bottle

if I could save time in a bottle
the first thing that I’d like to do
is to save every day
till eternity passes away
just to spend them with you

if I could make days last forever
if words could make wishes come true
I’d save every day like a treasure and then,
again, I would spend them with you

but there never seems to be enough time
to do the things you want to do
once you find them
and I’ve looked around enough to know
that you’re the one I want to go
through time with

if I could save time in a bottle…

5.    

lionel richie – I call it love

i look at you

you look at me

(you can’t help it you’re feeling butterflies)

its obvious, we have chemistry

(i think t know it cuz it feels so right)

girl I wanted so long to know

now you’re telling me you gotta let it go

(dont tell me i have to start all over again)

i never thought that this day would come

(this is somthing that i’ve wanted in my life)

I relize that you’re the one

(and you’re telling me its time to say goodbye)

to put this out of my heart, it ain’t gonna change

so it shouldn’t be so easy to walk away

(you feel it, I feel it, lets not be tense)

Chorus
Baby, I dont know what love is
Maybe I’m a fool
I just know what I’m feeling
And it’s all because of you
Don’t tell me
I don’t know
I want the truth
Cuz they call it
We call it
You call it
I call it love

6.    

ziggy Marley – drive

who’s gonna tell you when

it’s too late

who’s gonna tell you things

aren’t so great

you can’t go on

thinking nothing’s wrong

who’s gonna drive you home tonight

who’s gonna pick you up

when you fall

who’s gonna hang it up

when you call

who’s gonna pay attention

to your dreams

who’s gonna plug their ears

when you scream

you can’t go on

thinking nothing’s wrong

who’s gonna drive you home tonight

who’s gonna hold you down

when you shake

who’s gonna come around

when you break

Ini satu yang, gue baru nyadar, kinky ternyata huehehhe… dan taunya karena GW en YM nyanyi2 di ruangan gue

7.    

Justin timberlake – sexy back

[Bridge]
dirty babe
you see these shackles, baby I’m your slave
i’ll let you whip me if I misbehave
it’s just that no one makes me feel this way

and of course, I just have to have a grim song whuehehe… Gue udah tau nih lagu kayanya sedih banget, tapi baru tau waktu liat liriknya ternyata banget banget sedihnya huehehhe…

8.    

julia Fordham – happy ever after

Don’t ask me why I’m running out of laughter
There’s tears in these eyes, not happy ever after
And I thought it was plain to see
And I thought the whole world could be
And I thought we’d be happy ever after.

You could say that I’m living in a pipe dream
It’s just looking back, things are never what they seem
And I hope I can safely say
And I hope most things go my way
And I hope they’ll be happy ever after.

So don’t ask me why I’m running out of laughter
There’s tears in these eyes, not happy ever after.
And I thought it was plain to see
And I thought that maybe you and me
And I thought we’d be happy ever after.

Ternyata gue ada temennya huehehe…

Tadi sore salah satu dari orangterkasih ku buzz di ym. And boy, we have the same problem huehehhe… Yah, well, almost the same problem sih. Pertamanya gue sempet ngira jangan2 dia nge-ceng-in gue karena apa yang dia baca di sini. Karena yah… kok bisa pas banget sih apa yang dia omongin ama apa yang lagi gue alamin. Ternyata… dia emang bener punya almost the same problem.

I’m so love you, babe cinta! Kok bisa2nya yah kita kaya yang janjian gini hehhehe… Ahhh….!!! Tau gitu dari kemaren aja gue curhat ma dia, karena dibanding orang laen, dia lebih tau gue, keraguan2 gue, kebimbangan2 gue, pertimbangan2 gue, dan ke-stuck-an gue huehehe…

Niwei, setelah inget2, banyak juga ternyata perubahan dalam diri gue.

Contohnya: waktu jaman sd cupu dulu, denger ada temen yang bilang klo temen yang laen ternyata tidur seranjang ma cowo, udah langsung gimana gituh… Klo sekarang sih, ampun deh, cuma share the same bed, so what? Hehhe… Diliat2 dah banyak juga men that I slept with whuehhe.. waktu sma share satu matras ma anak2 pmr, dan waktu kuliah, join bnec, makin menggila deh. Ketemu ma cowo2 yang bebal … eiths! *menghindari timpukan* karena udah gak anggep cewe2 bnec yang cantik, manis, baik hati nan berbudi luhur ini sebagai wanita, yang seharusnya dijaga dan dihargai. Oh well, kita juga gak pernah nganggep cowo2 itu berharga dan layak dijadikan panutan sih, aren’t we, gals!? Whuehehe… Pokonya dah gak terbilang deh berapa kali share satu tempat tidur ama mereka. Pas kader, pas raker, pas outing program, pas pulang tour d’cirebon, ampe pas di worlds!! Yah ampun… padahal gue mengharapkan bule cakep, ternyata malah obert en tene drop banget deh, apalagi liat boneka babinya obert yang disuruh bawa ma cewenya whuahahha….

Dan gue juga jadi lebih permisif dan understanding. Well, mungkin ada hubungannya dengan ikut debating society. Lumayan membuka pikiran, you know, dengan segala pro-con stances itu

Walopun ada beberapa hal yang tetap gak berubah, seperti betapa perokok irritates and irks me and that I can never understand them and that I will always think of them as stupid.

Dan sekarang, I’m going through the biggest changes in my life. I may or may not flip stance, but this is something that I have to make up my mind about. And with iancinta feeling the same, I started to think that it may be some phase in life that you just have to go through. Semacam puber yang terlambat gituh huehehhe……

Read a disturbing email on my yahoo yesterday and all I can say is: heck! If that’s what you think happening, then it is.

I don’t even want to bother myself with an explanation.

There might be people who’d hate me for doing it, namely thefriends. Well, guess what,

I.

Don’t. Care. If you want someone to blame, hey thefriends, blame it on you!!

Granted, I might gonna regret this action one day, but I’ll deal with it when the time comes. Not before.

Then again, if I want to be a bitch, I have to start at some point, right

A good step untuk mempersiapkan diri gue untuk bilang ‘tidak!’ ke orang2. Gak ada deh Ms. Nice Girl lagi yang kadang suka terlalu considerate ma perasaan orang2.

Ha! Semua orang bilang muka gue jutek, sekalian aja kelakuan gue juga deh huehehhe…

Hhhh…. and now after that been said I can enjoy my weekend. I hope. ‘Fraid it’s gonna be another boring one :sigh: Jatoh2nya nonton friends lagi dah ini mah! Oh well, secara kemaren dipinjemin seluruh season ama Bu Sis huehehe…

Dan tentunya! ketikan cirque du freak gue yang gak beres2 dari, .. uhm .. 3 bulan yang lalu?? Duh…… memalukan!!!!! Baru beres bab 19 dari 33!! Whuahaha…dan udah belagu pake acara mesen tempat segala buat yang buku 2 dan 3nya huehehe…

Dan sambil nonton tentunya sambil crossing fingers supaya minggu bisa ketemu (klo crossing fingers sambil ngetik mah agak susah yah…)

Ah… l’amour *lumiere mode on*

Skalian mo nyoba pake kartukridit baru whuahaha.. orang paling norak sedunia mo nyobain pake kartukriditnya yang pertama. Abis itu I can proudly say that, “I’m no longer a creditcard virgin” whuahahha…

But ppssttt….. keluarga gue gak bole ada yang tau nih… Bisa diomelin jakarta-bogor whahaha… cos they afraid I’ll over-used

Jadi.. *tatap ina dengan tatapanmembunuh* jangan lapor ke ully soal ini yah…!!!!!

Walopun paling top juga gue pake buat nonton buy1 get1 whuahaha…

Well, digencet keluarga en ditakut2in ma wina QMF en dengerin cerita2 hardrockers udah cukup bikin orang mikir seribu kali buat make card huehhe…

So, hope your weekend will be brighter than mine!!!

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Sabtu kemaren nemenin orangtersayang nyari kos deket binus sini. Astaga……. ada satu tempat gitu, yang klo dari iklannya sih udah paling top en asik, tapi begitu diliat tempatnya, ck..ck..ck.. suwer, gue kaga pernah liat kamar kos SEKECIL ituh!!!!!!! Dan harganya 325++ pula!!! *geleng2 kepala* bener2 cocok dengan istilah “kamar segede lemari” dan sesuai abis ma istilah “kandang burung”!!!! bernapas aja sulit kali di ruangan ituh!!

Beberapa yang kita liat harganya variasi sih, tapi klo diitung ma ongkos dll, jadinya dia mutusin untuk kos deket kantornya ajah, yang mana jauh dari gue :sobs:

Jangan dong… I’ll be lonely without you… Gue gak akan baik2 ajah klo gak ada loe…… :cries:

padahal gue dah ngarep2 bisa dapet kos yang murah jadi dia tetep deket hehhe… or even better, avo ditransfer lagi ke tempat laen jadi kamarnya kosong so he can move in mwuehehehe… :evil grin:

Btw, dari selasa kemaren lagi mikirin untuk pindah kerja nih. Bukan apa2, cumannya taon depan gue disini dah 2 taon dan masalahnya, disini kaga ada tuh yang namanya jenjang karir. So once you start with one position, you’ll likely be end up with it. Yah, mo gimana, yang namanya juga sekolahan ;p and it’s definitely not something I wanna spend the rest of my life doing.

Moreover, telah terjadi sesuatu sih. Senen minggu kemaren ada yang dateng ajah gituh… Horror!!!! I mean, gue gak nyangka dia ampe berani dateng ke kantor gue, astaga…. berasa di-stalk!!! Bener deh, gue punya dosa apa sih ama dia ampe dia segitunya?? Ddduuuhhh…..

Yang bikin jadi pikiran tentunya adalah…. gue mo pindah kerja kemana yak?! Huehehehhe… ini sih pertanyaan abadi sepertinya ;p and by the time I found out, I might have spend almost the rest of my life lol.

Apa gue merit ajah gituh, trus mengembangkan karir sebagai ibu rumah tangga?? Aih… masalahnya diyah tak mengajak sayah menikah

Boring weekend indeed. Baru nyadar klo I’ve spent almost my weekends and weekdays with him these past few months that I don’t know what to do without him around. Especially after spending the last holiday with him.

Dia lagi sakit, jadi gak bisa kemana2. And the fun in watching-dvd-series-simultaneously-during-weekend like I use to do every weekendbeforehim seems to lose its touch.

He’s at his aunt’s, so I cannot be with him. While I would love to be there, to take care of him, doing whatever I can to make his pain go away.

And with him planning to stay in a place far away from me …… :sigh:

I am so… missing him.

Nonton friends season 2 seharian. And yes, gue baru mulai ketawa after he texted me hehhe…

I love him. That simple.

This might take me somewhere. Or maybe nowhere. But you know what, I don’t care. So long as I’m with him.

Admittedly, I do imagine of having family with him. Had this strong urge to learn how to cook and clean properly like any other woman should. Yeah, it’s that bad. Heck, I think I’d say ‘yes’ if he asks me to believe in the same faith as him!! Now, that never happens before…

But even if that all wont happen, I’ll be happy to just be with him.

I take my chances. After all, I got nothing to lose.

If this ends, I might have to pick up all those tiny little pieces of my brokenheart, but you know what, I’d do just that. Compare to living without even a memory of him, all the while asking myself the infamous ‘what-ifs’ questions, suckling and self-pitying myself for the rest of my life, brokenheart seems a whole lot better lol.

And if he’s not feeling as much as I feel for him, well, I think mine would be enough for the both of us.

:gasps: And I’ve just got myself typed an entire “Mills & Boon’s Classic”’s sappy  paragraph!!

And before it’s turning into a sappier version of Barbara Cartland’s, I think I should stop hehehehe…

Wish me luck, you guys.

Thanks