mai life

I saw her again. This time on the edge of the chair, right besides the door. Leaning across, skirt neatly placed under her legs, with that dreamy, thoughtful looks in her eyes. Her long hair would be flowing on her back, delightfully plays with the wind that came rushing inside.

She’s very unlike other girls I know, that always try to keep their hair neat. While she always seem to have the urge to let her hair loose under the temptation of the wind. She would make faces as she got something on her mind.

The only other position he ever see was her in the corner, stuck her nose in a book. And she always has that cute frown on her temple, as if she’s trying hard to comprehend the story. Even if it’s a light manga you don’t need to think reading it. Sometimes she would giggle, in other times, the frown would get deepened. In some rare occasion, if you look carefully, there could even be a hint of tears brimming in her big bright eyes.

But no mater how attached she looks with the story on the books, she always know the time for her to lift her nose, put the book neatly on her bags, and stop the car.

We’ve always met like this. She would be on the car first before it reached my school. And I always want to introduce myself. I’ve “introduced” her to all my friend and they either said that I won’t stand a chance or for me to go for it. They all agree though, that she’s wonderful. But I never have the nerve……

I’ve always wait for that 30 minutes journey ever since I laid my eyes on her. The bittersweet of seeing her again, and all the while fully aware she would never look at me the way I look at her.

I even doubt she realize my existence much as I to her. While I? I have to admit that I always wait for the car with her in it.

Pretty pathetic, huh.

I saw him again. I’ve spotted him even before he stopped the car and the car approached him. He was standing with his friends. One of them is a pretty girl, and when I saw him smiling to her, I felt that pang of jealousy again. The feeling I’ve become accustomed to since he walked into my life, literary.

He was smiling because of things that she said. Oh, how I wish he would smile out of something I say…. Wishful thinking, for I never say something to him……

I’ve always noticed him. Being tall and lean for a boy his age, he sure stood up. And when he smiles….. He could light up my whole universe.

He’s unlike any other boy I know. Those uncaring to what others’ think but their own male ego. He always listens attentively to what his friends got to say. You don’t need to look at his face to know that (even though looking at his face is a feast to the eyes), his reply alone has answered the question.

I can tell from the conversation he had that he’s smart, but humble. Yeah, I’ve become the lowest eavesdropper since I met him. Even reading, the only escape I have from this crazy, chaotic world, has lost its attraction. I would stare blankly for several minute at that one particular page, and there’s nothing I can understand. Sometimes I have to blink away the tears of frustration I have and try to work it out one more time. But as it always happen, instead of concentrating to the book’s story, I would listen attentively to his conversation. Try to keep in mind as much as I could, every piece of information about him.

There are times when our eyes would meet. And…. It always feels like there are only him and I in this world. I know, I know, it started to sound like a sappy greeting cards, but that’s really how I feel.

I use to laugh at those novels. Especially on that particular line that explain how someone can be stupid beyond comprehension in front of those s/he likes. But here I am now, feeling like I’m the most stupid person in the whole wide world…..

yay! dapet comment baru lagi. And from a person that i dont know… hm…

bingung juga, kok ada orang yang tau blog gue…

oh well, enihoo., thx for your comment!! It’s always nice to know that your post was read by other people.

And i’m sorry if my post insult you in any way. Dont mean any, honest. It just crossed my mind one day on how odd it must have sound to the native speaker on us revering bussway as the buss.

**hen, quit smirking on my back, please!!**

Sometimes it also crossed my mind on how can a string of letters makes sense. Contohnya: imla. Nah, gimana caranya kata yang terdiri dari ‘i’, ‘m’, ‘l’, dan ‘a’ can make sense? It does not ring a bell at all!!
(Btw, buat yang gak tau, imla means dikte. Well, gue juga taunya gara2 suatu masa dimana sering isi tts di kompas minggu) Bakalan lebih ngerasa aneh lagi klo kata itu diucapkan dengan cepat, tanpa nada.

Sering deh, ngerasa gitu. Sampe kadang2 bisa lupa sendiri, "ini kata artinya apa yah???"

Oh well, gue rasa nobody likes dikasi pelajaran bahasa indonesia yang sebenernya gue juga gak gitu tau hehehehe…. tapi emang kadang suka gatel sih klo ada satu kata yang gue tau salah, tapi dipake/diucapkan orang. Bawaannya pengen buru2 benerin yah, liat2 juga sih, klo orang gak dikenal mah pura2 budek aja hehehe.. tapi klo orang yang dikenal sih, langsung aja ditenggor :)) contohnya tomi dengan ‘bersdei’nya

Juga klo ada tata cara penulisan yang salah, pasti senewen, pengen ngebenerin. Iya ga, K? :)) (kangen juga gue ma loe, udah lama gak chatting :D)

Dan sebagai orang yang cukup fair (IMO) gak masalah juga buat gue klo dikasi tau klo yang gue tulis or cara baca salah…

Hope you’re not offended by what i said here. Then again, this is my blog, i can write pretty much whatever i like kan?!?!?! hehehehe… keluar deh juteknya

eniwei, nice to know that someone who doesnt know me at all read my blog and leave comment.
Nice to know you!!

p.s.
yeah, easy for you to say to make love not spam, you never receive any of them anyway….

dapet satu link dari hendra barusan:

http://ceretch.multiply.com/journal/item/11

sigh… bener2 deh. Hear, hear to this.

wuih………… so fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this new ISP is way…. fast! Open every page i want in half a blink of an eye!!

wow.

Aside from having a way faster ISP, i also got messenger installed. Yay! Now i’m back to the online-chatt-mode on

agak takut juga sih… becos this is a trial line. Meaning, you never what kind of connection we had once we close the deal with this new ISP. Klo resort to the old snail connection mah…… :((

well, even if, tapi sekarang bisa buka my own blog here lho!!! Kemaren2 kan gak bisa karena katanya underscores are not allowed as an url name. Got deceived one, the reason why i deleted my blog months ago, damn. Tapi tadi coba2 klik en kebuka!!! Whua… senangnya… Sekarang jadi makin males deh ke warnet…

Hm… klo gini kapan kerjanya yah???

percaya ato gak, minggu kemaren merupakan pertama kalinya liat blog sendiri hehehehe…. Trus bangga aja gitu liatnya…. whua…my own blog… my own flesh and blood ….

hehehehe… too much yah? well, they are my flesh en bood in their own term. Karena i created them. My creation, my flesh and blood…

i feel motherly…

been reading fanfic lately. Keeps me busy

happen to hit ‘fanfiction’ on google one day and found a bunch of website. Open two. Fanfiction and adult fanfiction. So yes, curiosity kills the cat. I opened the aff. Been surfing the site for the past days now. Yes, it content adult thing (with the name and all…) but if you look carefully, you can always find diamond in a puddle of mud. So as it happens. Few stories written wonderfully. One that i like, because the diction and the way the author describe the whole situation, got this on its summary page : sue me, i was bored.

Geez… that cool and and done when s/he was bored??

There is also another one about elie and the rave master. This one is so funny…. flawless… feels just like hiro mashiba wrote it himself. Can imagine how it drawed.

There are also this section about how to write. Have just saved them on my documents. Havent had time yet to read them all. But will, someday. One of the ‘how-to’ also about "how to write an adult stories" giggles myself reading it. Really cant imagine myself being an adult stories writer *giggle madly* up to now, can only think of myself writing teen, hiskul stories, with nothing adult whatsoever from it. Yeah, only know how to make a moshy, sappy, stories…. Yup, not even the word. Hiskul was not the time of me cursing. Left them all the day i left junior hi (tho i regain them again once i met buluk, sigh…) All is in the view of a pink glassess.

Guess i have lots of thing to tell from my own teenhood. Got ideas already on what to write on my ‘fact or fiction’ category.

so i wont be updating my blog in a couple of days.

The fanfic thing plus the fact that they gonna shut the internet tomorrow.. because they want to try a new ISP. This one is way too slow!!

Hey!! What’s that sigh i heard???!!! Told you already that i’m sorry if i spam your email…

i feel like spamming with all those alerts.

Arie said that it’s a good marketing technique he could use one day

and when i met sumanto last saturday, he complained a bit about them.

Dewi also said her share about that.

I really feel like spamming…..

starting new category. Got quite ideas in mind i could develop into stories. But whether they’re based on true events in my life or events on my surrounding’s life, you could never know….

that’s why i named this category fact or fiction. You could guess yourself whether it’s fact or fiction

Inviting others who also like to share their stories…. joyc?

Jumat kemaren, ngobrol ama lecturer yang bernama ahmad, orang pakistan. Dia bilang klo di pakistan sono, orang sekolah 14 taon. Trus dia tanya, disini berapa taon. Lalu setelah gue itung: 6 taon SD, 3 taon SMP, 3 taon SMA, en 4 taon kuliah, we spent like 16 years of our life for school. Blom lagi klo ditambah ama yang masuk dari TK, ato ada yang gak naek kelas, or waktu kuliah lebih dari 4 taon. Jamaknya mah 16 taon lah yah.

Jadi inget waktu itu pernah adju satu debat di CC soal … uhm… soal apa yah?? Hehehe… secara ingetan cuma dua detik, lupa juga tuh motionnya aja. Ini aja bagus masih inget klo pernah adju debat itu satu pokonya about education and skul gitu deh…. ada yang ngitung berapa waktu yang kita spent di sekolah, literally. Ga, gue gak inget berapa lama waktu yang kita jalanin di sekolah (dibilang bisa inget ada debat ini aja udah hebat) tapi yang pasti sih banyak. Dan klo misalnya emang we’ve spent 16 years of our life in school, sebagus apa sih institusi pendidikan kita???

Klo misalnya orang2 indonesia umur maksimalnya 64, brarti we’ve spent a quarter of our life in school (gue ngitungnya tebalik, 16nya dikali 4 duluan hehehehe… emang dasar gak bakal ngitung :D) Coba liat effort pemerintah sini dalam upaya mendidik generasinya. Apa emang udah cukup?? Sebenernya apa sih yang kita dapet dengan sekolah?? Apakah cukup dengan tau bahwa ada yang namanya bilangan prima? Bahwa pluto adalah planet terjauh? Bahwa kita punya 3 jaman batu (paleo, meso, neo)?? Bahwa orang indonesia adalah bangsa yang gotong royong, toleransi, gemah ripah loh jinawi (btw, itu apa yah?? terdengar keren aja klo dimasukkin :D)?? Bahwa orangtua yang darahnya masing2 A dan O gak mungkin punya anak B??

Implementasinya ke dunia nyata??

Klo pun ada yang bisa, dengan logikanya sendiri, untuk mengimplementasi apa yang telah dia pelajari ke dunia nyata, bagus. Tapi berapa banyak sih yang gitu? Apalagi dengan jiwa yang dari awal dipupuk untuk pasif, terima aja.. yang ada pada stuck with all of those theories. Klo waktu gak dibilangin joyc, gue gak bakalan tau klo matematika itu dipake buat bangun rumah (dia anak sipil, jadi gue percaya aja deh ;p)

Salah satu lecturer sini juga, ferdy, kuliah di monash. Dan dia sendiri bilang, klo disana tuh klo ada pertanyaan, semua pada angkat tangan, berlomba2 sapa duluan, untuk jawab pertanyaan. Oh. Wait. Did i say ’semua’? Yes, got that right. Semua kecuali orang indonesia.

Dan sekarang, apa yang our new government did for the educational sector. Kemaren, balik ke kos dari bogor, denger percakapan yang menarik antara sopir en keneknya. Si kenek bilang klo uang sekolah naek 25 persen. Trus sopirnya balik tanya bukanny uang sekolah katanya gratis. Jawab keneknya, itu mah gratis cuma klo iklan. Kenyataannya gak….

Sedih gak sih. Seperempat bagian dari hidup kita ternyata gak dipake secara maksimal.

nope, not the artificial inteligence. It’s the avian influenza. Yah.. gue emang jarang *cough* ampir gak pernah baca koran, tapi tau lah klo sekarang lagi ada kasus AI lagi (ehm.. karena kemaren nathan mo makan di kentucky gak bole ;p)

Dan gue juga mo menghimbau untuk STOP makan ayam!!!

Yah, susah sih emang. Karena seperti yang gue pernah baca di headline salah satu koran bertiras nasional waktu wabah AI melanda years ago, makanan di indonesia tuh banyak banget yang berjudul ayam. Bahkan judul buku aja ada yang ter-inspired dari makanan dan pake kata chicken.

Tapi it’s best you avoid eating chicken. Pertama, karena flu burung!!! you never know when it will attack kan… Kedua karena ayam2 itu kan, terutama ayam negri, tidak sehat karena diberi hormon pembesar. Yah.. kalopun mereka cuma suntik pitamin de el el, tetep aja dikasi sesuatu….. And i know it’s true.. Bokap gue peternak ayam, dan dulu tuh di kulkas banyak betebaran suntikan2 buat ayam (well.. ‘berterbaran’ tuh hiperbol sih… he got this little space on the fridge to put those stuff) hehehehe…. jadi tau ;p lalu ketiga, kemaren ini gue pernah baca klo ayam2 yang dijual tuh blom tengtu pada mati bener semua. Maksudnya emang di matiin buat orang beli, bawa pulang, dimasak. Ada juga yang bangke ayam, trus dijual… No, isnt that freaking…!! Lalu, lalu, yang ke-empat adalah… uhm… let me think about it first… will update this after i find the fourth reason

Yah, emang sih, klo mo sakit or mo mati mah, sakit aja.. mati aja.. mo makan makanan paling sihat sedunia ge gak ngaruh karena that’s the way that happen. Cuma gak ada salahnya nyegah dong???

*cough* udah cukup concern blom gue kedengerannya???

hehehehe… sebenernya sih ini himbauan dari orang yang gak makan ayam. Jadi klo nti makan bareng, gue, sebagai minoritas, gak perlu bersusah payah berusaha menyesuaikan makanan (yang biasanya mentok makan nasi goreng, tanpa ayam! ato klo lagi gak selera ma nasi goreng (saking seringnya) cuma bisa meratapi nasib dengan ditemani aqua :D) hihihihi…

udah dibilang gue jaat en kejem… >:)

Mari, mari…. jangan makan ayam!!!!

**gila, gue jaat banget gak sih, merusak bisnis orangtua. Padahal bokap gue sendiri udah bilang, sambil makan ayam seakan2 for stressing his statement, klo gak bahaya **