mai life

what part of ‘no’ dont you understand??

i am doing this post solely for the purpose of education.
And that is: reading. Well, and properly.

So, you want me to add you as your friends in friendster.
So, you know we know eachother not.
So, you leave not any messages or whatever on my fs inbox.

Why? if i may ask??
Why didnt you leave not any message while it is CLEAR AS BROAD DAYLIGHT THAT I WROTE ON MY PROFILE THAT SINCE I’M NOT HERE FOR MS. POPULAR CONTEST, IF YOU WANT ME TO ADD YOU AS FRIENDS, PLEASE DO LEAVE A MESSAGE!!!

Gawwdd!!!! *exclaim in frustation*

So, i am not sorry in saying that i REJECTED your request.

i know, i know.
havent been updating this blog much. Well, what can i say, personal life has become pretty demanding now, if you understand what i mean *wink*
anyway, here to say:

happy birthday to:
my aunt
her daughter
denny akew
nuru-chan

and for tomorrow, the ‘happy birthday’ will have to go to:
my uncle
meity

and on the 25th, it will be for:
my (other) auntie

for the 27th, it will be for:
US!!
yay!! happy 10th people!!
though i dont feel as exited as early last month now haha..

for the 28th, it will be for:
my half-brother

for the 29th, it will be for:
my grand-auntie

So i guess it wraps the birthday/anniversary wishes for everybody that i know of.

And oh, by the way, mother’s birthday was yesterday.
Happy birthday, mie.
Miss you still.

Boooo!!! happy birthday yah!!!

i know you might not read this, but i also know that you have friend(s) who read what i write here and thus will tell you.

I think that this time you gonna let me write about you in peace, that you wont object because hey! i’m merely saying my wishes for your birthday, no? I wont be able to say anything that could degrade you, no?

anyway,
have a super duper year!!!
hope you’ll find the love of your life get whatever you wish for, and be thoroughly blessed, amen!!!!

much love,
your cousin

Happy birthday, love!!!
much happiness in your life,
mmwwuuuaahhh..

what will you feel when the people you care about
the people you love the most
the people you value above anything else
the people you’d die for
the people you’ll trade your soul with the devil
the people which you’ll endure bruises and scratches
the people which you’ve endure the bruises and scratches
the people which you’ve had the bruises and scratches
the people you thought you could trust your life to
the people you thought you could trust with your life
simply stab you from behind?

I’m just
sad.
I’m taken aback and again, thinking,
what have i done wrong?
am i really that unloveable?
am i really that price-less?
am i really that unworthy?
do i have that writing in my forehead saying:
please stab me, oh please, i’m begging you?

but then again,
you can never lose what you you never, ever, had

and when i give myself time to cry out and have a peace with my mind, the tears just simply refuse to cooperate. But then, when i’m with other people, when i’m out in the open, i could hardly held them at bay.
and i dont like barring my life to stranger like that….

oh yeah?!?!
so what do you call posting it on your blog?

sigh……
contradiction in a simple sentence.

on a lighter, happier, much happier note, hari ini mei nikah!!! yay!!! You finally get someone to make a decent woman out of you whuehehehehhe…….

Hope you two get along just fine until you’re both old and crippled, amen!!!

Cuma satu pesen gue, tolong jangan punya anak dulu, okeh.
it’s hard enough for me that you married this year, gak perlu deh langsung branak taon depan, OKEH!! *ngancem* huehehhe…..

Yang laen, jadi kita mo janjian ketemu dimana nih buat pergi bareng2 ke resepsinya mei????

aarrggghhh!!!!! *kena timpuk trinie*

1. Tipe dan Merk HP
nokia 6070

2. Fasilitas 3G
kayanya sih gak ada tuh…

3. Wallpaper
t.k. dunks

4. Nomor
dari dulu tetep sama

5. SMS terakhir
to: orangtersayang
from: david hannigan

6. Spesifikasi
liat sendiri deh di nokia.com!!

7. On/Off
always on.

8. Letak HP
di kantor: sebelah keyboard (klo kluar ruangan gak dibawa)
di kontrakan: di atas keyboard

9. Batere
masih pake yang lama

10. Catatan
catetan apa sih???

Gak mo nimpuk sapa2 ah, males!!!

huehehhe…

ayok dong diisi testnya, kasian tuh

dangling alone one empty sheet.
Longing for someone to fill it in and make it complete…

bikin puisi nih gue critanya whuehehe….

plis, plis, plis, ayo diisi….

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out of nowher nih, i just want to tell you what website i’ve worshipply open everytime i’m in front of the computer (which usually happen on weekdays)

1. first and foremost, will be
https://mail.monash.edu.au
yeah, gue sekalian nyombong klo gue punya email monash! whuahahha…
Norak!! Norak!!!

2. mail.google.com ato www.gmail.com

3. mail.yahoo.com

4. www.friendster.com

5. www.yahoogroups.com

6. www.hardrockfm.com
yeah, sejak gue pasang spiker di kantor, gue bisa STREAMING!!! yeah!

7. www.viecouture.com
granted, some of the items shown are not my likes (no offense, cherie, i’m just still a conventional, i guess ;), but i just cant help peeping into the web!! The fact that the one owns it is one of my sweetest yet kick-ass girlfriends prolly one of the reason why, along with the irresistible collection that varies from corsets to bandeu, from charms to watches, from smoky eyeliner to innocent gloss, and simply everything in between
Updated almost daily, you need to check it almost daily too, to ensure you wouldnt miss a thing
But be forewarned: it’s addictive. And the corsets-love the owner has is contagious. I think. Cos i found myself wanting one or two from the one she posted

tau kan klo gue norak? Yeah, dari muka juga dah obvious banget

Niwei, hari ini liat sapa yang "who’s viewed me", dan ha! ada yang ngarang novel!!

Dan okeh, ke-norak-an yang sama, ama waktu ketemu miranda dan minta tandatangan dia di unguviolet (yang mana tuh buku sebenernya punya mita) pun dateng lagi. Gue msg tuh pengarangnovel dengan sokpede, sokkenal, sokdeket, sokakrab-nyah. Entah apa nanti tanggapannya

btw, yeah.. dah lama yah, gak apdet blog. Sebenernya masih ada sisa dari januari lho!! Waktu itu factory visit, tapi itu pun cuma baru satu ato dua line yang diketik. Juga waktu kemaren ‘piknik’ ke malay. Juga sekarang jaga ujian.

Yah, sudahlah, i’ll try to type them all. Bukan buat siapa2 sih, gue tau, gue pasti gatel ntar klo blom cerita2. Kan tuh, norak
Hari ini, seperti juga semester lalu, gue nyeken ujian dan aplot. Klo semester2 yang kemaren2, kita blom canggih sehingga musti nge-fax. Dan kayanya dah sering yah gue komplen soal fax itu. Kemaren gue dapet (sebenernya, tentu, company yang beli, buat prop dept. gue, cuma karena mejeng di meja sebelah, en connect only to my PC, boleh dong, di-aku ) alat canggih. Dia 4 in 1, beybeh! Scan, fax, print, copy, all in a blink of an eye! Gila, gue langsung euphoria! Cuma karena sibuk aja dari kemaren2, blom sempet nih dibaca2 manualnya (walopun udah gue liat2 sih, dan kayanya isinya standar..)

So, i’ve finished scanning MCD2060, and it really super fast (compares to the previous) cuma tinggal aplotnya aja nih……
*crossing fingers*
cepet juga dong…..
kan gue gak mau pulang jem 2 pagi lagi….

musti balikin komik, you know!!

HI!

It’s been a while yah, since the last post here. Many things happen in my life juga sih. Seperti bahwa gue ahirnya nonton music en lyrics juga di dvd. Bajakan tentunya. No need to ask deh walopun, after seeing it, I intend to buy the real one. Klo lagi diskon gede2an tentunya

Niwei, I like musical comedy romance movie like this and thanks to MP and the fellow I met there, I found the OST of the movie and downloaded them (thank you juga buat zendy yang gara2 liat status gue di ym jadi ngasi link ke gudangdownload buat keseluruhan album) and practically drove my manager and wina crazy with PoP! Goes my heart lol. But the song indeed got a catchy singalong tunes, the one that once it reach your ear, it just wont leave.

..but then PoP! *claps* goes my heartttt!!!…

See…

Kabar lainnya adalah gue pake behel.

And that’s what we called a hoax

Iancinta iya pake behel. Gue sih masih gini2 ajah. And I asked her to asked her boyfriend about the feasibility of me donning that kind of treatment with my kind of teeth. And he said that it’s ok. I am able to braised my teeth. He’s a dentist, so really.. really.. handy lol.

Money, is of course still a problem. I calculate how much I can save until the end of this year yesterday. Oh, a little background story behind the calculation: I have to invigilate an exam for a frigging three straight hours. Alone. One must do something sane to prevent him/herself being insane due to the extra cold exposure that could lead into the extra heavy eyes. And numbers can make a sleepy mind alert enough. I think.

So back to the problem. I can save up the to amount of money I predicted I can save this year. But that would mean I cant buy things I need to buy urgently. Things like aircon for example. I so desperately need it particularly in this kind of temperature… Cukup sudah hubungan simalakama gue ma kipas angin!!

Hari ini pun tentu gue jaga ujian lagi. Yeah, the same ol’ 3 hours!! And yeah, sendiri lagi *grumbles* Good thing tempatnya sebelahan ma ruang IT, jadi gue bisa nyulik orang IT buat gantiin gue jaga sebentar while I’m off to do other more important things like peeing or keeping my feet warms. Yeah, gue dah kesel ke ubun2 banget nih. Soalnya gue bener2 went through this alone. Menejer gue lagi ditugasin ke os dan orang2 yang mestinya bantuin gue either sakit, ato sakit, ato simply didn’t reply my text. Just think I’ve had enough of this bs.

And maybe that’s why the feeling can creep its way quite easy to me. I’m jealous. I opened his fs, saw this girl, clicked her, and remember that i saw the name on his cell and reading his comment/testi on her, and adding one with one then whoops! jumping into conclusion: … wtf! They were out to see a movie together? When was that!!
And there, I’m suddenly a gorgon with snakelike hair and a stone-ing stare. And I don’t like being jealous. Why, my wild imagination will pull its infamous trick on me again. An then there’ll come the insecurities…

Which will brings along its companion, namely the tears, the grief…

Sigh…

And isn’t that a sign of doubt? Lack of faith? While I should have believe that he’ll be true to me…?

Sigh…
And i do believe he’ll be true to me.
So there’s no need to feel that ‘j’ thing nor being a gorgon, right?

I do realize one thing today though. Was on the bus that’ll took me to the office this morning when I realize that I haven’t been grateful enough for every good thing happen in my life. There were shits, sure, just like there will be. But there are always the small mundane things that I somehow took for granted, yet without it, I might not be able to go on since they support me, my life.
Like every hug we share. Every tear we shed together. Every ‘hi’ we exchange every morning. Every stories we tell eachother.. And it’s like 5 days to our anniversary! Yay!! I’m ecstatic!! I love you guys so verymuch *hugstight*

And so, in conclusion, besok gue bisa nonton epi trakhir season 1-nya heroes. I so cannot wait!!! Hope it’ll be a blast. Literally. Yeah, I really hope someone will explode. That’ll be so cool….